Chronic pain

When I was diagnosed with rheumatoid I didn't really understand pain, I mean I had had pain but I just got on with it, you know headache didn't stop me, no pain relief needed for me! 

But now I'm heading to 8 years with rheumatoid this summer, 8 years of chronic pain, 8 years living in 24/7 pain with no break, I'm emotionally and physically knackered ... I have and do keep fighting to have a normal life, but it's taking its toll ... Just imagine being in pain 24/7 365 days a year .. From your little toe to your head ... There's no break from this pain.

Some times it intensifies so your crying so pain, sometimes your just rocking, but you get through it one step at a time u work through it mentally .. 

I'd love to have a pain free day, what a day that would be 

X

A year on

A year a go today I went to Cambridge United at the FA cup, we took a draw and they came to old Trafford, but that very day in a way changed me well as a football fan! 

I'd sat on the train wondering if I was doing the right thing going, I sat there talking to a group of women on the train, talk to anyone me then! The thing was what I didn't know was things were going to change that night, for the better. 

I mean I was low on confidence, I didn't see how I had friends, I knew football would pull me out but I never realised just how much.

I first met Andy who seemed a nice guy, he I'm sure thought crazy brummie chick, I'm from Worcestershire people!! 

The game came, I first saw Jon and Alex although we didn't speak, Jon was busy patting di Maria on the back!! 

Seeing the view at Cambridge enlightened my outrage for wheelchair users everywhere!

I also met random away fans who I regular chat to Even now a year on.

After walking back everyone was going back to cars, hotels you could feel the disappointment in them all .. I mean drawing to Cambridge!

In the hotel bar, waiting for Andy I was thinking dam I'm cold haha! Then I met peter and Gordon! The Scottish lads as I call them now with affection!!

After that night, going home I though to myself I think I'll be ok going away with United, suddenly I felt able Togo again without fear 

A year on .. I'm still friends with Andy, Peter and Gordon made some some lovely memories with them. 

I've become friends with Andy M,  Scott, Jon and Alex, Kevin and Martin and Zoe and Richard .. I call us the wheelchair gang! We've made many memories together, including getting soaked in Brugge and freezing outer butts on a train platform in Wolfsburg lol 

But I've also made new friends in the able section too, the traveling United fans are a family and accept this crazy Worcestershire lass who wears a pink hat, everyone knows where I am because of my hat!! 

Thanks for all the love and friendship guys, you made me feel accepted for the first time in my life .. Love you guys ❤️❤️ UNITED!!! 

2016 apologises

So here we are in 2016 and I'm still not up today with last years excitement from Leicester away, West Ham at home, Wolfsburg away, Bournemouth away, The wheelchair .. End of an era and Stoke away .. Boxing Day

And most recently Newcastle 2016 

As you can see it's been a busy time with my outings and my health hasn't been that good either, with rheumatoid, asthma, eating issues, panic attacks and depression! But I am starting to come out the other side and hopefully I will be able to catch up on all my blogs soon.

This weekend brings me to a year ago that I went to Cambridge away with United .. More to follow on that one.

Well that's all from me at the moment 

Here's to a happy and healthy new year to you all xx