Friday, 30 December 2011
My one stuggle this year other than my Rheumatoid is with my weight its been a long and hard struggle. As i write this 31/12/11 i am eating much better than i was earlier in the year. I have not reached my target of 6 stone but i am making stead progress which is often the best type. Its been heart breaking seeing my weight so low and then starting to eat more and not seeing the results i wanted desperatly. But its starting to happen now the weight is building and i will get there with the help and support that i have in place.
My rheumatoid was covered in a previous post but u'll know its been a tough year a real rollercoaster.
This year i have started to deal with the loss of my mum properly and it is painful talking about her on a monday evening but it is helping me see the light.
Highlights of my 2011 .. getting my dog back, hes the best he's a little bit of trouble but i feel so safe with him and he comoforts me when im not feeling well.
in Feb Birmingham city won the carling cup and then we went on a european tour. Manchester United won their 19th title the excitment of that was massive! My brother and i went to see Gary Nevilles Testimonal and Paul Scholes both legends at Old Trafford. We also saw the Charity Shield at Wembley that was a truely fantastic day!
I have seen Take That live at Wembley Stadium, 2 Premier League Games, Jessie J live in Birmingham The Saturdays in London.
A week with my best friend .. we went to the coast and saw my other friend and her beautiful baby was lovely to catch up, we went to London, we cooked a roast,we also went to manchester and saw the football! we went on safari and we went to the zoo it was a great week very tiring but worth every minute of the week of pain that followed!
This year saw my brother turn 18, an adult in his own right! Ive made some new friends, rekindled old friends. Enjoyed my football alot along with my new love of darts! Just so many sporting highlights for me to mention!
So whats been missing well vicky at times shes been lost and confused and upset, but as we go into 2012 in 23 hours time i will be sure to make a promise to myself that i will refind myself and i wont give up fight my battle and as for Rheumatoid it wont beat me! I will continue to raise awareness of this condition.
I hope to do my friends and family proud. I thank those that have helped me this year in many different aspects, thank you everyone.
Firstly this blog is my proudest achievement this year so Thank you for reading.
This is my 3rd year with rheumatoid and i wont lie its been the tougest yet to face. For many reasons really. The pain has become simply unbearable at times, the fatigue and insomnia have driven me to ultermate dispare and often tears.
Its also been hard from a personality and friendship side, ive made many new friends but equally seen friends struggle with the condition as it has simply got worse. I've been so proud of my family and how they have coped and adjusted to the Rheumatoid this year. My personality has been very tearful at times but its also brough me some really tough times.
But the main thing is the new joints its affected in fact i fear all my joints have had a flare this year! Loosing my ability to walk has been the hardest to overcome but im stronger and better mentally than i was initally.
So Rheumatoid you have changed my life this year in many ways but im still fighting you.
Thursday, 29 December 2011
I was fine but as the days went by i got pain coming back more and more, i felt rather miserable, i didnt just miss my gel and help but i missed those that have become friends, the general chat!
Christmas day was ok apart from a hit of fatigue, after lunch with my dad and brother i went to sleep for 2 hours in the arm chair as did my 70 year old dad! I didnt feel bad! Well i should mention my dad hurting his leg then the turkey fat exploding in his face, honestly it was a comical moment!
I have eaten a lot this festive season more than i normally do in probably a week! It has been very good for me i am sure ive put some weight on!
Boxing day i saw my cousin, aunty, uncle and the kids i had a wonderful time we laughed and joked. Played with the kids toys, it was rather funny seeing the eldest kangeroo hop around the room on her battery quad! We went for a walk or should i say push up on the licky hills which was fantastic as ive not been up there for a while, it was bitter cold and the wind was up! But i loved being up there!
Overall this festive season has been filled with seeing family and friends, eating a lot of food! Also sleeping a lot i seem to be so tired recently but also insomnia what is normal sleep!
Saturday, 24 December 2011
Tuesday, 20 December 2011
London ... So in the end i went after a lot of tears it was quite awful i cried for a few hours, i had been looking forward to it for a long time, but in the end it was sorted out. I had a fantastic time. We laughed, we cried, talked in my sleep! Saw The Saturdays which was an amazing show. I took 105 pictures! It was a lovely start to celebrating the christmas period. I shopped on Saturday in Islington and Moorgate which ive never done before so i enjoyed that! We had food in wembley and islington, crnt beat some good food with your mate. The only problem i had was the fact i didnt want to come home! Wont be going to london now til 2012 March at the latest for my cardiology appointment.
Tuesday, 13 December 2011
Saturday, 10 December 2011
Hard to deal with
Explaining it makes it seem more painful
Understanding makes it real
Managing the condition with enough medication to draw a picture
A day with less pain is celebrated
T he physio always hurts
Osteoarthritis is not the same as rheumatoid arthritis
In the darkest times your true friends are there
Don’t ever give up fighting even when it feels to much
Acting like everything is ok when it’s not is normal for us
Rheumatologists are specialists in our condition
The condition is the same but everyone suffers different
Having rheumatoid doesn’t mean your life is over
Rheumatoid makes you slow down but not stop
It’s normal to wake up and take an hour to get out of bed with pain
There’s light at the end of the tunnel
It’s allowed me to meet some lovely people I’m just sorry we all have rheumatoid
Saver the good days to remember when you’re having a bad day
Thursday, 8 December 2011
I cry because it hurts
I cry because your meant to be my friend
I cry because its lonely
I cry because i want to be loved
I cry because i lost you
I cry because you don’t understand
I cry because you will never leave me rheumatoid
I cry because i like you but the wheelchair is there
I cry because of the wheelchair
Crying helps to allow your fears and pain to be released I cry
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Sunday, 4 December 2011
Saturday, 3 December 2011
Friday, 2 December 2011
- fun loving
- flirt - yes i am!
- out going